Bah, I'm me, what more is there to brag about? ;-)

Well, there won't be a second date with Toby.  Yes, unfortunately.  I am not going to lie, I am confused about this.  When we first called each other we spent 4 hours on the phone together.  Then every time after that it was a good hour, hour and a half.  We talked a lot before we met, and even then, I thought our date went smoothly.  We laughed, had jokes, had endless chitchat.  At least, I thought so.  And even then, at the end of the date, when I asked if he wanted a second date, he said ya.

Maybe that was the two beers talking.  I tried calling him yesterday, and I couldn't get a hold of him.  So I texted him asking him if he was busy and if I could call.  Now on Sunday I had texted him, asking him if "he was feeling it" meaning the beer since he admitted to drinking prior to our date and said he would feel it later.  I didn't get a reply back Sunday or Monday.  But on Tuesday I get a text back saying "Watching baseball game, no i am not feeling it like you said it was nice meeting you."  It didnt take too much to link it together, so I asked him if I did anything wrong, and he simply replied, "no, your just not my type."

Type.  Ohhh, does that word set me on edge.  Not my type, my type.  What does that mean?  Does that mean I am too fat for him, not skinny enough, too ditsy, not busty, too shy, not friendly, too needy, not worthy, too free, not considerate?  I mean, what makes a person have a type of person they are attracted AND THEN JOIN A BLIND DATING SERVICE?!?!?  Hello, you moron, if you want a certain type go fishing elsewhere where you can view your fish better! 

Okay, okay, okay, I can understand having a physical attraction to certain people.  I mean, there are those cuties in the world that make us go "oh la la" and blush.  And if that physical attraction isn't there, then I guess I am not his type.  Well, sometimes, these things take time to grow...  I know this from Pattie and Rob.  Pattie and Rob didn't have that attraction at first though.  And I do not have a physical attraction to Vincent.  But after one date he can honestly say this- no, not say, text it to me.  I am not his type.

HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW ME!

My 2nd date with Vincent 7/18/11

Vince picked me up around 7, and right off the bat we got lost.  As it goes it does not help to have two directional challenged people in the car.  We drove around trying to find our way into Cranberry, which took about twenty minutes, lol.  I swear he is worse than my dad, and that is saying something.  We eventually found our way to Aladdin Eatery, after much driving and talking.  I didn't mind though as he seemed much more relaxed and talked a little more easier than the first date.  It rained on and off while we drove, but by the time we got to the restaurant, it was lightening and thundering with heavy downpours.  We enjoyed our meal with idle chitchat about the storm.  When we finished, he paid- and only tipped the waiter a dollar.  I thought that was weird, but maybe he generally isn't a tipper to begin with.  Whatever the case, we got back into the car, got lost for another twenty minutes, found our way, and got me home safe and sound.  I love car rides to begin with, so getting lost didn't bother me in the least.  And it gave us the opportunity to talk and get to know each other more.  I asked him if he was interested in a 3rd date, and he said yes, but he goes back to school on Monday and doesn't know when he will be available.  I told him it didn't matter, we'd figure something out.

My date with Toby 7/16/11

Toby, a 5'11"/6' brown haired, blue eyed hunk, picked me up yesterday for our first date.  He was right on time.  I went outside and my first impression was 'wow' because he had personality rolling off him in waves.  We got inside his car and we headed to Primanti Brothers.  We choose this because Pattie said it was a place I would feel comfortable in, and he would have the sports on the TV for him.  He was okay with it and off we went.  And I failed to remember the directions.  I know, I am hopeless.  But we talked the whole way passed it, turned around, and found our way there.  Once inside, having eaten there countless times, I knew what I wanted.  So I watched him make some funny faces while trying to figure out what he wanted (I do this myself when I am unsure of what to get).  We put our orders in, I got a raspberry iced tea and he got a bud light.  We had each other laughing a lot, which is really important to me.  Our food came, and we still managed to talk in between bites.  On our way out, he had the bright idea of trying to figure out how to get me home himself and told me not to tell him how.  For once I actually knew where we were, so I just agreed.  Luckily he figured out he made the wrong turn before he got too far down the road.  I laughed the whole time he turned around, as he said a hint next time would be nice.  In my opinion, we made it home too fast only because I didn't want the night to end.  I had a blast and am really looking forward to our second date (which hasn't be set up yet).  I cannot understand how the guy is still single!!  The only downfall is he does smoke.  He was very considerate to ask me if it was okay for him to smoke in the car with me in it, and he made sure he kept his cigarette practically outside the window the whole time so it didn't bother me in the least.  But even so, he is charming and pleasant and funny and considerate and easy-going!  I could really see myself falling for this guy. 

My date with Vincent 7/11/11

My date with 6'5" black haired and hazel-eyed Vincent went well.  We were going to go to Aladdin's Eatery, but instead went to Mad Mex.  I found out I do not like avocado or bean sprouts much, but I am still loving chicken salads nonetheless.  :-)  Vince is sweet.  He came to pick me up for our date which won him extra brownie points as not many guys have the civility to do so anymore.  He is obviously shy and timid, and it doesn't help that this was our first time meeting.  However, the chitchat was easy.  I know how it was to be that painfully shy and I kept the conversation flowing the best I could (while still being shy myself).  When I asked him about it he admitted that he is quiet, and I simply asked him if he was interested.  I didn't want to beat around the bush, and I made it clear that I would like to go on a second date if he was interested.  He said he was.  I am not sure what his type of girl is.  Since I am the pudgy short type with not-so-straight teeth and glasses I was prepared for a let down.  However he asked me to call him (since my schedule is busier than his) and we could try to set up a date for next week.

Updating my Blog 5/16/11

I haven't had the time to blog or vlog.  Not that I had the desire to.  My focus for these passed weeks was only for Vixen, my beautiful but bitchy mare.  I put her in training in April.  Some would think it would be a total waste of money, but she wasn't safe.  Not even for just herself.  What it comes down to is trust with her.  She doesn't trust easily.  She had been abused, harshly, and reacts hotly to the wrong kind of corrections.  The trainer was extremely helpful in showing me how to handle her, though it's hard to control an 8oo lbs horse!  All of April was spent getting stalls ready for Ransom, then for Vixen and Sarge.  Vixen and Sarge arrived exactly at 5 on May 8, 2011.  Since then we have been bouncing between the kennel and the barn, work and pleasure.

Yesterday (Sunday May 15, 2011), we had a horse welcoming party and a birthday party (for me).  It was just another excuse to have family and friends over the house, lol.  But nonetheless, we showed off our horses, Pattie rode Ransom and Rob rode Sarge.  We were planning on pony rides, but it started pouring down rain!  So we had to put the horses away, but then I found a toad!  I had seen one the night before and was totally geeked because I had touched it.  Pattie handed it to me, and I actually held it!  Then we spotted another one in front of the house.  I chased it a little while trying to catch it.  Yes, in the rain.  I never said I was brilliant or anything.  ;-)

For my birthday I got a journal (thanks Toni) which I may use for my witch studies as I don't really keep a diary.  I am not sure what I aim for it right now, but all I know is I love it and I plan on using it.  I also got color pens, which are a weakness of mine.  Especially purple ones!  I got two gift cards, one for Target (thanks Jackie) and one for Barnes and Noble (thank you so much Aunt Wiggles).  Pattie got me an actual riding helmet instead of the bike helmet I have been using.  Yay!  Trust me, there is a HUGE difference.  Like, a life and death difference.  And what is better is this one is white which will keep me cooler in the sun than the neon pink (ugh) that I had been forced to buy last minute.

Then Pattie told my mom to buy me something really special.  And my mom went for it even though she had no clue which one would be better...  And now I have a Smithsonian Handbook of Birds for the bird watching I have recently picked up!  I was sooo geeked for this.  Minutes after I got it and was flipping through the pages, Toni (Rob's mom) pointed to two birds in a tree and asked me what they were.  I looked them up (it took a while but I found they were Scarlet Tanagers) and then screamed and jumped up and down and did a dance because (and I am quoting myself) "my book worked!"

So all in all my May has been good.  For Beltane this year we had a small fire in the fire pit outside.  I didn't do anything special because I was too focused on getting the stalls ready for the horses.  But now things seem to be settling down a bit.  The kennel will pick up as summer drags on, but I can't complain.  I am hoping to get things done.  However that means more time for me, and less time for you (blogging/vlogging).  I don't know if it will really matter since I don't really think anyone follows me on my blog or watches my YouTube channel much.  I still plan on posting, but it won't be nearly as much as I had hinted before.  Though doing a video now will be nice since I switched my room around.  You won't catch a messing half-ass made bed behind me anymore.  :-)

Light and Love to all you folks!

LoneWolf.